I'm writing this on a Friday evening, having agreed to venture out into town tonight with a couple of friends. This will be the first foray into a bar or club since being single.
Now, I am in no way looking for any man action, or any male attention at all in fact, but for some reason I am stressing out about what to wear. Maybe when I was a 'taken' woman, it didn't matter as much what I wore? Maybe I want to prove to my friends that I am doing OK and can still get myself dressed and look presentable, and am not wallowing in baggy tshirts and pyjama bottoms 24/7 (I am sitting here writing this in such an outfit...)? But it's definitely not because I want to catch people's attention. And if I get any attention tonight, to be honest I'm not sure how I'll handle it. Previously, if a guy started to talk to me/try it on I would be able to retreat to the Ex or at least make it clear that I was with him. Or, if I was out without him, my friends and I would generally take the piss/imitate/have a laugh with any men that took any interest. Does being single mean that I should start taking attention from men seriously, and not run away/dismiss them, in case I am missing 'opportunities'? I really hope not. I'm not sure a bar or club is going to be a good place to find the New Man anyway. Most men I come across in bars & clubs are drunken wankers who are trying to pull anything that moves.
I shall report back what I learn from the experience. Fingers crossed.
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